Quinquinevere

Feeling giddy and bloated. Worst of all, feel like puking.

No.

Don't be mistaken.

I am not pregnant.

Just too much caffein ( I

One kind aunty who is a member from my company walked in and gave me Rotiboy.
Then my GM bought me teh tarik which tasted bitter and the thickness of it just numb my whole mouth + a curry puff which he claim is much better than Old Chang Kee.
Was gobbling down my curry puff and taking sips of teh tarik while busy scanning documents.
Was feeling full. But still stuff myself with Rotiboy which tasted sooooooo good plus my teh tarik.
Right after that, i felt nausea.
Could feel my stomach churning.....bad bad bad

Too much caffein in teh tarik.....*bleh*

I think i m gng to avoid teh tarik for a long long time + Rotiboy too....

Curry puff is alrite :)

A couple were having a massive row in a pizza restaurant. The whole restaurant became quiet as they raised their voices louder and louder. The argument had started off about which giant pizza they'd choose to share. He wanted pepperoni and capers; she wanted Haiwaiian. She started off accusing him of never listening to what she wanted and she hated capers. It was nonsense to suggest that a perfectly good pizza could be ruined by pineapple. Besides, if he ever took the trouble to shop or cook, they wouldn't have to go out so often to eat at a pizza restaurant. Anyway, she didn't want to eat pizza regularly because she always preferredt o eat more healthily. And all this pizza was giving her a weight problem. Was it really too much to ask that she be allowed to choose the pizza type just this once? After the last sentence, there was silence. The whole restaurant listened in to see what the man's response would be. He took his time. He sipped hi winde, looked at the floor, at the menu, then, finally, back at his wife. "This isn't about the pizza, is it?" he said at last. "This is about the last 15 years."

This is often a clear signal that a communication problem exists between two people. Instead of addressing that problem , however, it's usually far easier to pick on little trivial things and bait each other with those instead. This is particularly a tendency many women have. Many little girls are still brought up believing that they should be nice and sweet, and put their own needs and feelings last. They grow up into women who believe it's their role to keep the peace, to smooth over problems, to be liked and loved. Many women find it extremely difficult to just come out and say, "I'm not happy living ike this. I feel stifled. I want to take a break from everything for two weeks to go off by myself and have some time out. How would you feel if i dropped the kids at my mother's for one week, you took the other week off from work to look after them, and i had some time to myself? I think i'd come back much happier, and be a much nicer person to live with." That's much harder to say and do than publicly picking on his pizza preference.

Women often expect men to intuitively pick up on what they're thinking, without actually saying it. They assume that if they yawn and say, "I'm so tired, I think I'll go to bed now" and wander off, men will brush their teeth, gargle with breath freshener, put on some deodorant and slip into something more comfortable to join them there for a session of making love. Instead, many men grunt, go back to the fridge for another beer and settle down on the sofa to watch sport on the TV. It's never occurred to them that the woman intheir life is talking in indirect code. The woman, sitting alone in bed, eventually falls to sleep alone, feeling unloved and unwanted.

Constant argument merely masks a deeper communication problem. When women learn to say directly what they mean, men respond more readily. Women need to understand that male brain function is comparatively simple and men can rarely guess what their wives and partners really mean beyond the actual words they've uttered. Once both sexes have realised this, it makes communication much simpler, and removes the need for much of the nagging and argument that takes place.

Suppose to pay for my mum's flight ticket by 10am before the airline cancel my mum's booking from Sin-HK. But i don't have that much $$ and my bro don have the $$ too. But he was the one who suggested to help my mum pay for her flight first by borrowing $$ from his friends. Then my bro called and say his friends can't help. So i was caught up in a dilemma to pay my mum's ticket by today yet have no $$. There is no way i could help financially so i called my bro and suggested that he borrow from his gf friends since they always hang around together. While waiting for my bro's reply, i went to take a shower.

While washing my hair, my phone indicated that i have sms (brought my hp along with me into the bathroom). It was from my bro.

Damien (11:14am) - What time does the travel agent close?

I couldn't reply him by sms cos i can't type while washing my hair so i called. I just pressed the call button without noticing who i was calling. My left hand washing my hair while my right hand was holding the phone. My bro and i speak teochew so the conversation went like this:-

Me: Chap je tiam pua (12.30pm)
Him : Si mik kai chap je tiam pua (What 12.30pm?)
Me: Le to de ko? (Where are you)
Him : Thompson Corner
Me: Thompson Corner?
Him:Si ah (Yes)
Me: *THinking...wat the hell are you doing at thompson corner? Isn't that in Kuching? S'pore got thompson corner meh? Got Upper Thompson Road la. But he was at Boon Lay and why is he at Upper THompson Road now? Nevermind! *Shrug it off* .... Che ni moik liaw? Le gai peng eiu neh? Kak e nang chiok soi la. (How liaw? What about your friends? Brrow from them first la)
Him: E nang ai seng interest. Ching kui gai interest bor. Gou pa sien interest. (THey want to charge interest. Very high interest bor. 5% interest)
Me: Boi che ni. Charge do charge la. Le tou ti u liu bo liu? (Nevermind. If charge then charge la. Do you actually have the $$ or not?)
Him: Bo ah. Wa u sa chap kow nia. (Don have. I only have RM30)
Me:Ooi..Ka meh liaw. Mai seng liaw. (Ooi..Quick liaw. Don't play liaw)
Him:Le toi ho ho lai le ka kok de tiang. (You look carefully who you are calling)

I look at my phone, saw the name...Marcel hp...I hung up the phone immediately. For a moment, i stood in my bathroom shocked and didn't know what to do. I can't believe i wasn't talking to my brother. I actually called Little hammer. And he played along with me speaking to me in teochew. I smiled and started giggling. I called Little hammer back and we both laughed at the whole amusing situation.

Called my bro back after that and got my mum's ticket in time :)

Yah! I am sensitive. I admit it. I am over-sensitive at times. But which gurl ain't sensitive when it comes to relationship? So if i have to tolerate your insecurities, then it's fair for you to tolerate my sensitivity. I have done nothing to you for you to entitle your insecurities. But you have done everything to me for me to feel the way i feel. You quetch that i should keep you informed about everything, should i not, the blame is on me that i increase your insecurity and suspicion and the more reason you should let us go.

But think about it a second! I should be the victim instead of you. My heart is as fragile as glass. I have never hurt you before. Have i? Though it was all but the past, remember that the hurt will always remain in me even after long i have forgiven you.

Insecurity is a vulnerable feeling which is developed through one's mind. This is my concept of insecurity. I can't help you. No one else can. Besides love, trust and respect is of utmost importance in a relationship.

Do you think i don't feel the same way as you do? I do not trust you as before but yet i tell myself i have to learn and build my trust in you day by day for us. Do you think i fear not about your repetition? Oh yes! I very well do...all the time. But since we have made up our mind, why then should we let any hindrance tear us apart? Is it worth to yield to temptations and ruin all that we have build?

My little hammer...I love you

Everything is gona be slow-sailing today. I know it. I just know it. Cos i took my time today. Woke up, shit, wash face, eat apple, chat on the fon with my mama, showered, changed, eat banana oatmeal, chat on the fon with boy boy, make-up, walked really slowly towards Hougang mrt. Train came. No rush rush. Train gone. Never mind. Wait for another train. Chat chat with boy boy. Train came. Board train. Sat down. Chat chat. Train stop at Dhoby ghaut. No rush rush to be the first. Walk slowly all the way to my office. No sigh sigh. Good. Fantastic whether today. Cos no sweat sweat too.

I am in a languid mood today.

Usual day would be rush rush rush. Rushing through my breakfast, no fon calls...not when i am in a rush, walkathon to Hougang mrt. People would usually block my way and i would say "Excuse you" *frown* think 'Damn it! Don't block my way, can't you see i am rushing?' Hot hot!! Sweat sweat!! Reach mrt, run down the escalator "Excuse me, excuse me"....the train reach. Quick Quick! Board train. Train reach Dhoby ghaut. Quick Quick! Run up the escalator....Walkathon all the way to my office. Sigh...I am panting....~Breathe breathe~

*But most of the time, i don't know what i am rushing for.

Gone! All Gone!! Cleaner aunty stole my UOB visa debit card and my EZ-link card. I left my handbag and went to the washroom. She must have went through my stuff then. *sob sob* I just top-up my ez-link card. Still have $60 in it...*sob sob* just found out half an hour before i knock off work. I am depressed. I am sad. I feel so lost. How am i suppose to go back without my ez-link card? I only left $15 in my wallet. Just the right amount to buy another ez-link card. But that's all i have to survive for another 2 weeks :(
Sigh! Luckily Kally lend me hers. My debit card? F**k it! Hehehe...Good thing that i haven't activate my account yet and even if it has been activated, my account is left with $0.46

On the brighter side, i thank God that my bro didn't give me his share of rental. Rental is due today.Landlord suppose to collect it from me. Usually my bro would pass me his rental on time. But cos he was still sleeping after his night shift and he just received his salary today, he can only cash it out in the evening. So i pulled out $400 from my wallet and ask my bro to liase with the landlord to pay the rental instead of me. If my bro would have given me his share of rental, i would have brought it to work and my one month rental would be stolen.

Thank God!!

P/S: I have learnt not to trust and pity anyone so easily...not even aunties who smile at you
all the time. Well...i learnt the hard way.

Went through a few quiz of predictions....believe it or not?

What lies behind your eyes?

In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself as just an average person! You enjoy life, love wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who know you best. You like to get outdoors and let your mind wander over all of the mysteries god gave to you. You don't really have a certain sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but you like having fun and adventures, but can also be found sitting quietly about, reading a book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you, never trade it for anything else :)

What do you need in your life?

You need love. You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person that just craves that fairy tale love where you will be swept off your feet and live happily ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or dream about it so much that you either see all the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell yourself that anyone could be your soulmate. You long to have someone by your side and you want to give back on the romance part too, not just give.

What's your personality?

You're a very mellow, care-free person. You are exactly what calm, cool, and collected means. You never overreact or panic in a bad situation and you always know what to do. Everyone goes to you for advice because you never lose your head so your very reliable. You tend to take everything in stride, like in school your moto is just sit back and relax not to say you dont pay attention and work, but you dont overexert yourself. Even though people come to you for counselling you can still be very quiet, you're not good with making new friends, but you're extremely close to the ones you have. Remember its ok to put your emotions out there even though there is a chance they might get hurt. Also in school sometimes its good to stress out a little, just because you think you dont need to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also try to push yourself more even though you might be good where you are doesnt mean you can't be better.

I love you but i hate you
At times i just don't know what to do with you
Should i feel intimidated through your justification?
Or silently tolerate your manipulation?

You left me feeling liberated through all our confabulation
As much as i would like to relinquish my determination
And challenge the world with respective sense
To awake my state of reverie

I am not your submissive companion
A duty-bound to response is not my opinion
Oh..Love me alot and understand me a little
This is all to make everything riddle

I love you but at hate you....at times

Was trying to clean up the office before heading down for dinner with Kally and the BEM's. Saw 2 big umbrellas beside the water cooler. Decided to open it up to see whether it's still working cos it's been left there for a long long time and no one came back to claim it. For a moment, before opening it, i had this thought that there might be cockroaches hiding in there cos my office is now infested with baby cockroaches crawling around. But i couldn't find the nest. It didn't hit me that i should open the umbrella outside the office. Plop! For a second...NoThiNg! Then i saw small cockroaches crawling out. YIKES!! I was screaming COCKROACHES....ahhh... Kally was beside me and ask me what happened. When i told her, she was just as freaked out and both of us were screaming and climbing on top of the chairs. The BEM's then helped us to take out the umbrellas and one of them opened the other umbrella...Oh My! Aadolescent and baby cockroaches started crawling out. They knocked the umbrella several times and cockroaches kept falling out. You could see cockroaches crawling everywhere. But they didn't kill it cos they think its a SIN! You know...Buddhist fundamentals? So it's a sin to kill creepy crawlies, but not a sin to cohabitate, indulge in worldly thoughts and deeds, greed over $$...hhmmm...Sometimes i wonder whether this people have brains!!...(Sorry!No offense....it's just me) I must buy Shieldtox tomorrow and start spraying away...I HATE COCKROACHES...Had really bad experience when i was studying in KL. Oh well! That would be another story...hehehe..LOL...An Umbrella of Cockroaches...

I can't find my bra!!!!!! My bra...my bra..my bra bra braaaaa...how am i suppose to walk out of the door without my bra???

This always happen to me when i am rushing for time to work. Where is my black bra? Search...search...my luggage, wardrobe, book rack, under the blanket, whole room....NoThIng!! Sitting room...NOTHING~!! Nevermind, sit down to think. I had a shower last night, my top is in the laundry but where is my bra? SOS!! Call my bro...but nO..how the hell would he know where my bra is?? Forget it...i will just wear a different bra today. But...this bra no push push (u get what i mean?) and it doesn't suit the top that i am wearing today. So no way am i going to wear this bra!!! My green embroided bra doesn't suit either. My white bra would be perfect but i can't find the strap :( Bikini top?
Nahh....Aarrgghhh...then Mich reminded me that i left the bra on the chair last night but it was covered under my bro's towel so i couldn't see it...heheeh...;p

Something interesting about birth date: -

About me:

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

About you:

Born on the 7th day of month gives you a tendency to be something of a perfectionist and makes you more individualistic in many ways. Your mind is good at deep mental analysis and complicated reasoning. You are very psychic and sensitive, and you should usually follow your hunches. You may not take orders too well, so you may want to work alone or in a situation where you can be the boss. This birthday gives a tendency to be somewhat self-centered and a little stubborn.